TIRED

i haven't slept for 7 or 8 days now and i really am tired i just can't sleep unless my body just crashes and my mom doesn't like that so she made it to were my body can't crash and now even sleeping pills won't work my mind is running on adrenalin and theres nothing i can do about it i need help............ and yes my middle b-day was horrible it was the same day my brother's dad died and they got into a fight about me being hit and then they started to talk which was good but i spent my middle b-day locked in my room trying to avoid my brothers while my mom was at work all night and then my friend got sick and i had to take care of him which i didn't mind i just hadn't slept and was shaken up about my brothers fighting because last time that happened i lost someone really special to me and i didn't want it to happen again but there was nothing i could do but they worked it out and are okay now but i'm not i need sleep and a therapist to help me with my problems is the only way my mom will describe it so now everyone thinks i'm crazy or just suicidal maybe both but they can't do anything to help me cause i won't let them get close enough in fear of getting hurt again so now i have to wait to see if i run out of adrenalin if i do i hope its soon


Akiko